Wonderland

 

YNP Sign

Yellowstone was being called “Wonderland” before it became our first National Park in 1872. And I am filled with wonder the more I learn about its history, its spectacular geysers, and the entire Greater Yellowstone Ecosystem. Yellowstone takes up over 3,000 square miles in the northwest corner of Wyoming. We are so blessed that this entire area has been preserved—certainly not without lots of controversies and challenges—but nonetheless it is still protected.

Yellowstone is as wondrous as it is complex, and I look forward to learning even more. This summer will be the 100th Anniversary of the National Park Service and it’s going to be busy! Talk about having to hit the ground running!

So much to learn . . . to take in. Reading as much as possible now so I’m better prepared for all I’m still to learn once up there . . . The history. The geology, including over 10,000 hydrothermal features and more than 300 geysers. Learning how their “plumbing” works and the difference between geysers, hot springs, fumaroles and mud pots. I stayed in the historic Old Faithful Inn about three years ago and found the entire Upper Geyser Basin and other areas so amazing.

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Thermophiles . . .

 

Bison

 

 

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Grizzlies         Grizzlies

Elk  . . .

Elk 2   Elk

 

Bald Eagles    Bald Eagle

Ospreys Osprey. . . oh my.

 

 

And then there’s the Wolves! I’ve been so mesmerized by wolves my entire life and now I’m going to have opportunities to watch them for real—not in books, pictures, videos or movies. I do believe that is my main joy, love and excitement about spending the summer actually living in Yellowstone . . . to see wolves for myself! And since the Wolves were restored to Yellowstone in 1995, studies are showing a greater biodiversity throughout the Ecosystem.

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I start May 3rd and the entire rest of the month is all about learning as much as possible before my tours begin in June and all the folks start arriving. Getting myself prepared has been such a labor of love. And then to have an opportunity to inspire others about nature and wilderness areas. Perhaps showing someone their first Wolf, Bald Eagle or Osprey, high mountain Wildflower or the Old Faithful geyser.

It will be different. Leaving my low-desert home for the mountains of Wyoming over 7,000 feet up in a dorm room. And I love cooking and will only be eating in the Employee Dining Room for five months. But, then, as Neale Donald Walsh puts it, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.” So I’m off on my next Big Adventure, looking forward to the many things I’ll be learning, new experiences I’ll be having, and the people from all over the world and walks of life with whom I’ll be sharing this “Wonderland.”

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Perhaps my Big Adventure will inspire others to try something new in their own lives. To finally do that something they’ve always dreamed of doing but were maybe too scared to try. I’m going beyond my comfort zone because I want to see and do more things in this wonderful life!

In this Wonderland!        sunrise

My Next Big Adventure!

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How appropriate that I should receive this wonderful caricature from my niece, Brianna, today. It marks the fact that I’m leaving in one week for Yellowstone—off to work for the summer doing tours in our first National Park! I’m excited and a little terrified at the same time. I’ve been feverishly “boning up”—reading all the books I can find on the birds, wildflowers, mammals and geology of Yellowstone, along with the thick “Yellowstone Resources and Issues” received from them. I think this little piece of artwork from my very talented niece is so appropriate for my next Big Adventure. Thank you Brianna!

YNP Touring Car

High Dive!

Living in Hawaii as a kid was great fun, with some awesome adventures—my favorite place from around the world as an “Army Brat.” We lived on Schofield Barracks where there was a huge Olympic-size swimming pool with amazing tall diving boards.

I suppose it was while in a class, we were given an assignment to climb the diving boards and jump off. I remember climbing all the way up there, but then I just couldn’t get the courage to jump off! I don’t remember how long I stayed up there trying to get up my nerve, I only know I finally climbed back down . . .     all the way back down!

Richardson Pool, Schofield Barracks, Oahu, Hawaii
Richardson Pool, Schofield Barracks, Oahu, Hawaii

I wonder if my climbing back down off that high dive was the start of my commitment to not ever give up—to never chicken out—again! Oh, it might take me hours—or days!—but I finally find somewhere inside the gumption to push through the fear—whether it’s rappelling off a cliff, parasailing, or just sharing something about myself that’s really scary. I knew somewhere inside I had it—that courage. My go-to response seems to have often been, “I can’t! I’m too scared! What if . . .” But at some point I’d dredge up that courage and go for it. I’m a big scaredy-cat, but eventually pull out my Superwoman costume from somewhere!

Invariably, once I’d do it, I’d think, “Wow! That was fun!” or “That wasn’t so hard.” And, “Why did it take me so long?!” The not doing of it was worse than the doing. It seems Hawaii gave this “Army Brat” yet another adventure . . . Bring on Superwoman!

Parasailing

Overcoming what seemed like a week of trying to gather up the courage, I finally did it! My sister Marian and I were down in Acapulco, Mexico. Our beautiful room was up on the 11th floor and, when we went out to take in the view from the balcony, there they were down on the beach.

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“Oh, gosh! I want to do that!” But it seemed so very scary.

Everyday I’d watch them and everyday I’d want to try it. I just couldn’t.

“Yes you can,” I’d say to myself. “No! I can’t! What if I fall. I’m too scared!”

But the very last day I was there, I knew if I were to ever do this it had to be now! Marian’s return flight had already left that morning. But I was determined. I wasn’t going to let my fear continue to keep me paralyzed. I was going to do this!

So I took myself—and my camera—down there and paid my money. I am going to do this! They asked me if I was sure I wanted to take my camera and, “Yes! Absolutely!” I had to be able to prove it  . . .  to myself!

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It was a blast! And I had the pictures to prove it!

Acapulco

Seque

The picture of me with my binoculars on the blog masthead is pretty typical of me. There’s everyone else facing forward waiting patiently for the Yellowstone geyser to go off. And then there’s me. I’m the one, as usual, going or doing the total opposite of most everyone else. I’m looking at the exquisitely beautiful and total enamoring Osprey circling overhead, looking for its next fish to eat.

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As a kid, when dad would come home from drinking, my sister would run for the bedroom and close the door. Her motto: Get the heck outta there as quick as possible! Me? I’d run for the door and could absolutely tell if he’d been drinking. If he had been drinking, it was my main goal in life to literally pick a fight with him!

Of course, at that young age I had no clue I was doing that. It was only in my young adult years of groups, workshops and therapies of trying to understand the alcoholism in my family that I realized what I had been doing. As dad was getting closer to having to retire from the military, the way he dealt with his fear of how he’d take care of his family, including five kids, was to drink. All he’d ever known was the military way of life since he was a young man. His drinking became worse and the alcoholism increased the closer he got to retirement. Dad had also never talked about the atrocities he’d experienced in World War II as a young man of 18 years. It wasn’t until his senior years he shared with any of us the results of having never dealt with seeing all the killing and dying as a young man fresh off the farm. Luckily for all of us, dad quit drinking when I was only 18 myself.

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So, somehow I grew up being the rebel—whether that was through angry outbursts or interminable depressions. I always seemed to go the opposite of others in my family or community.

I’ve shared how my usual MO was to be fearful, but I’d always eventually face the fear head on—whether that be meeting dad at the front door as he came home from drinking, or learning to rappel down off a high cliff or parasailing in Mexico . . .  I’d eventually do it.

So all these adventures I’ve led myself on over the years have led me back to Yellowstone once again. I leave in three weeks to live in and do tours working in Yellowstone National Park for five months this summer. I’ll be a tour guide driving those restored yellow touring cars or a “step-on” tour guide for large tour buses coming into the Park.

Yellowstone Tours

I was—as usual—fearful: Could I do this? Would I be good enough? Will I remember everything there is to share with everyone? But as I eventually do, I faced the fears of “What if?” with “Yes! Of course I can!” I’ve been doing tours at the Desert Botanical Garden since 2008 and have a national certification that says I’m qualified to do so. I enjoy people and love getting them excited and interested in nature. I think I’m up to the task—and everyday get more excited about my next “Big Adventure.”

Over the next number of months it’s my hope here to share with you pictures and stories about this new adventure. Who knows, maybe you’ll become encouraged to have your own next Big Adventure!

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Dishes

As a kid, my favorite little “trick” to get out of doing the dishes: I’d “have to go” to the bathroom. In those days we’d put all the leftovers out on to newspapers and toss it in the trash (why we didn’t save them to eat later is beyond me). One time I’d come back from my very-important bathroom run and my mom and sister, Marian, had already started cleaning the kitchen (which, of course, was the plan). I came in telling them of some oh-so-important discovery while in “The Throne Room” and sat right down on the chair holding the newspaper full of leftovers—that night being a batch of leftover mashed potatoes. I realized what I’d done as soon as I’d sat down and immediately stood up. There on the chair of mashed potato leftovers was this perfect impression of my butt! My sister was laughing so hard she was rolling on the floor! Mom and I looked at each other and the flabbergasted looks quickly turned to uproarious laughter.

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My little get-out-of-work “trick” had backfired on me! I have absolutely no idea if I kept using my “trick” but I’m sure once I finally returned to the kitchen I’d now be paying much closer attention to where I sat!

Celebrate!

What do I celebrate? That I made it!  Looking back, it’s hard to believe that this happy little girl

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actually seriously contemplated doing herself in many times in her life! (Which way would be the easiest? Which way would bring the least pain?)

 

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But what I celebrate today—and hopefully everyday of my life—is a trust in the God who helped me through some of the darkest times in my life. I celebrate me. And who I am today . . . so very far from those younger years when everything seemed so very overwhelming and endless.  I celebrate I kept going. I didn’t give in to those thoughts of self-doubt and -loathing.

I celebrate that my life today is about the joy and love of the life all around me.

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I celebrate that I kept trusting God and myself that some day—eventually—it would be better. It seemed to take most of my life—but the important part is . . . I made it! Today I am a joyful and happy person.

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I love to laugh and tease. I celebrate my partnership and I celebrate the person I’ve become. Through such darkness to such joy is truly something indeed worth celebrating. Good for me!

Learning to Observe

Life couldn’t be more perfect: I’m comfortably propped up on a bench—with a backrest no less—watching the hillside at “my” Desert Botanical Garden!

Hillside

 

 

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The bees are buzzing all around the Chuparosa beside me with its intense yellow-rather-than-red-flowers.

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A Curve-billed Thrasher is calling from the top of a Saguaro.

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A Gila Woodpecker is carrying on somewhere behind me.

Gila woodpecker

When younger, I could rarely just sit quietly like this. To still my mind—the incessant chatter—long enough to actually hear the buzz of the bees. I used to “bee” so “buzzed” myself that I couldn’t just hang out and take it all in . . .  To notice the clouds passing overhead. To be so in tune with practically every little nook and cranny of the hillside that I’d notice immediately if there was something up there—a Red-Tailed Hawk, a Roadrunner preparing for the brood

Roadrunner

or a Western Screech Owl peeking out of a Saguaro

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or the Round-Tailed Ground Squirrel sounding an alarm,

Ground Squirrel

and to know the sound I’m hearing is the Ladderback Woodpecker’s squeak.

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It’s so pleasant not to hear my mind-chatter. I can hear and see and notice now activities going on around me.

I distinctly and fondly remember the first time I started learning to observe things around me. It was the early 70s and I was with my friend Bob. We’d flown in a sea plane over to Lake Kathleen on Admiralty Island in Alaska.

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We hiked out into the forest near the cabin; he with his camera and telephoto lens and I with binoculars. We sat—like I am now—only propped up against a tree, back to back.  He said, “Let’s just sit here quietly, start noticing, and see what we see.”

At first I thought, “This is crazy. There’s nothing out here. It’s too quiet. Nothing’s happening!” But, then, after awhile—once that mind-chatter started to relax—I became aware of hearing this incessant sound, but only intermittently. Then I noticed, right about that same time, there was movement too. Soon I realized that movement was a bird flying to the same area in a regular, yet intermittent pattern. I had noticed my first bird! Then I noticed there was something in a tree. Oh, my goodness! Could that be a nest? It was a Cardinal I later learned and she was taking food to her little brood. And I found it!

Cardinal & babies

Jump!

Jump! That’s what it felt like they were asking me to do. Jump — 120 feet off Gibraltar Rock! I was north of Santa Barbara in a rock climbing class. I’d already summoned what courage I had to climb up the 120-foot of rock wall. And now it was time to rappel down off the thing!

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I kept going over to the edge looking down the massive boulder outcropping gasping, “No way! I can’t do that!” But I wasn’t about to give up. I was determined. It seemed as though I was up there for hours. Everyone else in the class had already gone. There actually was an easy way to just walk back down. But I was determined to get my courage up to do this. I wanted—no, I needed—to do this. For me. To show myself I wasn’t just a big chicken. Finally, I put on the harness and, with everyone’s support and encouragement, I finally did it. I was doing pretty good until the rock face suddenly receded and I no longer had my feet against the rock. I started to yell and about that time someone leaned over from the top, “Just keep going. It’ll be there.” I started letting out the rope and finally got to the bottom. I was ecstatic! I did it!

Hey! Let’s do it again!

Lightning Bolt

It came to me like a lightning bolt. I was in the Santa Monica Mountains with my friend Bob after making our way out onto a knoll on “my” Boney Mountain. The ocean smell was intoxicating as it rode in on the insistent roaring wind blowing up from the Pacific Ocean. He picked me up and held me over his head, yelling to me through the noise of the strong ocean wind, “Now fly!”

At first every part of me was screaming, “Put me down! You’re going to drop me! I’ll get hurt!”

But, then, something struck me like a lightening bolt from — well, from somewhere — “Just do it!” I stuck out my arms, straightened my legs and just let go.

I was flying! It felt as though the wind had just picked me up — right out of his arms! The sun was still going down, that aromatic fragrance of the Chaparral was still incredibly exhilarating . . . but — I was flying!

I trusted. I surrendered. I gave up control. And . . .        I was flying!

Boney MtnThroughout my life I have remembered that moment in time — when I consciously let go and trusted. I could clearly see — that day over 40 years ago — when I let go, I truly could fly. It just took trust and being willing to surrender to what might come.